April 17, 2008, I found myself on the way to the hospital to find out what happened to Shane. I had just been told of the plane crash but had very few details.
I have been taken back at times to the images of peoples faces upon hearing the news, of telling my kids what happened to their dad and the uncertainty of so much. I remember many of the sounds of the hospital, some I hope to never hear again. I think of the feelings I had of being truly overwhelmed at every front..... being a mom to our 4 kids, being there for my best friend who needed me and honestly the worst was having to take care of the bills. Who really likes to do that? But also trying to imagine how our lives were going to change from that day forward.
We have seen changes over the past year, but I can't say they have all been bad. I have learned the importance of letting things go, meaning that I spent way to much time worrying about things that honestly didn't matter. It feels as if we (immediate family) like each other better and really like hanging out with one another. Trust me this is not perfect but I have liked the marked improvements. Plus Shane gained a few more mother hens to watch over him and make sure that there is not to much risk taking by him. Which I am sure he doesn't totally appreciate.
I remember having incredible support at every single turn! So many people, so much food and so many prayers in Shane's (our) behalf. I felt every one. They carried me from that first day forward. So much service was given, I can't say thank you enough! Many blessings/miracles came our way for which I am eternally grateful to my Father in Heaven.
This also marks a year anniversary of blogging. I can't believe that I have kept this up for a year!!!! I just gave myself a pat on the back..... I am not a great writer, but I am trying to improve. It has been therapeutic to re-read all that has happened to us this past year. We spent our anniversary day celebrating life and it was a great day. Let's see what the second year brings us, shall we?
